Going back to life

Well, it’s Monday and the first day back to school after the Thanksgiving holiday. I’m not sure what to do with myself this morning. I wrote a blog actually two blog postings at Sidetick this morning. I’ve done a load of laundry this morning and hung it up. The jeans that I washed yesterday are sitting in the clothes basket waiting to be hung in the closet.

I have no idea what to write today. I did one article that I began last night and I have a few sentences into another article written and I’m stuck. I was supposed to call and reschedule two of Theresa appointments today but I can’t figure out when to reschedule them for. I think I have to cancel one of her speech appointments to make room to take her to one of them and then I can try for a Friday on the other one.

Well, I have an article and two more blog postings waiting to get done and only 21/2 hours to get them done in. I also have to pack up everything I need for therapy this afternoon in order to get some work done while we’re waiting for our ride so I’ll end this now.

Housekeeping on my last day to rest

Well, I did a little bit of work today, played a game or two and did some housekeeping. The housekeeping is still way behind but that's fine too. I can always get a large garbage can and get rid of everything. It's rather difficult to clean around a toddler and a husband but as long as I don't toss the husband with the garbage I've done my good deed for the day.

OK there's a lot to clean from my time off and a lot more work to do so I'm going back to it.

Recovering from Thanksgiving

Theresa and I went to my mothers for Thanksgiving. It was rather interesting, I drank a few wine coolers, smirnoff ice to be exact and some crown royal. The alcohol was good but I don't really remember the food except for the desert I should have skipped until the next day. Alcohol and chocolate don't mix well.

Theresa had fun with Matthew and Colby. She was just as hyperactive and loud as they were. We had to put a barrier up in front of the television so that she couldn't touch it though. She likes to hit the screens and that's not good especially with the new lighter television sets. They seem to be rather breakable with small hands involved.

Well, I slept Friday most of the day like I was promised that I could. Now it's Saturday and I'm exhausted still. I wanted to rest all weekend long but I have a nice destroyed house to clean. So far this morning I've hung up a load of laundry that I had to rewash in the back bedroom. I didn't feel like going outside since there is a bit of a chill in the air.

Wednesday when hubby got paid he got $45 and I got $45 I still have mine. He used his to buy a few things we need for the house, very few and he should have more money left than he does but of course he bought a couple things that he wanted that were not in the budget at all. Now I have to get gas in the car and the rest of what we need out of my $45. It's not going to last until he gets paid again. I'm hoping one day he'll understand that the bills are more than we're making at the moment. The holidays reduce his hours and this part still hasn't sunk into him.

Sadly enough at this point I'm just hoping my tax returns are enough to last a couple months. He won't have a paycheck through the summer. They draw unemployment and that won't be a whole lot. My main source of ad revenue is at just over $74 for the month so far. That's a good thing but it's not enough and I didn't have much in upfront payments. I'll figure out the girls Christmas though.

I've decided that from now on my Swagbucks are going for $5 Amazon gift cards. As long as I'm careful and leave them there I can probably get enough of them to fund next years Christmas and birthdays. That doesn't do much good this year but I can also get a few things we need if I'm careful with them during the year. I have to buy cat food Monday, then I'll have to buy another bag in two weeks. Two cats outside need twice the food as when they were inside. We have a Opossum eating the cat food.

Looks like what I thought was the simple task of getting Theresa's father to put together the car seat is yet another task I have to do. I wonder now just how many times he's done this in the last four years. Oh well, I'll eventually do it. On the bright side 33 gallons of tea is only $2.00 plus the sugar if we switch brands. Back to work I have two more blogs to update today and I actually intend to do it this time.

Gotta Love the Kids Shows

OK so kids shows are great when you want them to learn something or just keep them occupied while you take care of daily task. That I'll admit but there comes a point when they can get to be a bit annoying. How many times have you found yourself watching the same cartoon a hundred times over just because your child is being good? Too many to count unless like my friend Annie you have gotten rid of the television and found the more peaceful side of life.

I folded one load of laundry and washed two today. I hung one outside to dry and just brought it in a little while ago. I have yet to fold it and put it away, I still don't feel well. The other load is in the back bedroom waiting to dry. I'll have a load of Theresa's cloth training pants to wash in the tomorrow night. I'll actually have all of them in the wash at once so she'll be in a pull-up for a little while. I plan to buy her some more plastic pants and cloth training pants as soon as I get enough Amazon gift cards. That way I can have enough to keep her in them most of the week, they help with getting her to sit on the potty and I don't forget as much as when she's in a disposable pull-up. The dirty ones soak in a five gallon bucket until I dump them into the washing machine and spin out the water. What? I rinse them before I soak them, then I spin them out and let them soak in the washing machine before washing them in hot water.

Thursday is thanksgiving so she may or may not be in Marianna. Her grandparents were taking her father out to eat but now they're going to spend the holiday with family. Someone else is cooking so they're going out there. That's a bit of a long way and will leave me without a way to go since I have no brakes on my truck and hubby wants to leave when he gets ready. Although I'm a bit confused since he plans to leave his car at his father's house. I took a drive down there with them once, I'll never do it again. I can not stomach listening to instrumentals for so many miles again.

Well, today was rather uneventful except for learning that I didn't put a high enough soap concentration in my laundry soap when I made it. I used one bar instead of two, that would explain why I've had to use two to three cups to get the wash clean. Well, it's time to work now so I'll call it a day.

Thanksgiving Week

I was reading this post about Thanksgiving this morning and I started thinking. The problem in the post is a bit different from mine though. I rarely get to spend Thanksgiving with my oldest daughter although the last few years have been spent with the youngest. No one has celebrated with traditional Thanksgivings in a while here. This year my husband and youngest daughter are going out to eat with his parents. I will be staying home and enjoying time alone.

Why? Well, after five years of telling him that I don't like to go out to eat I'm a little irritated. It never occurred to him to tell them I prefer home cooked meals especially on holidays. Of course they'd never think of actually taking the time to cook something; it's much easier to spend money than to put thought into something for them it seems.

The highlight of my day is that an article about Christmas Gifts made it to Helium's homepage today. It's my best holiday article as far as performance goes so far.

Watching $40 a Day is kind of interesting at the moment. I think I'd have to aim for $10 a day or less if I were out traveling around. Well, I have two more blogs left to update today and I still haven't finished the reviews I was working on to get a bit of extra money so I'm calling it a day now.

Finally!

Finally Theresa has decided she's happy to eat what is put in front of her. Lately she has been wanting to eat nothing but sweets and bread. It's usually when we don't have either of those things on hand. This morning I made her an egg and some crackers. She finished her plate! I was so happy and a bit surprised that I got so distracted I didn't even notice that she'd eaten the entire plate.



I went to check the on demand listings and she said "I want watch Scooby Doo" so I let her watch one episode. I've got to find her some more episodes online to watch. The same 6 or 7 episodes have been on demand for what seems like forever now. At the moment since she's been so good she's watching an episode of "Bobby's World" since she's never really seen the show. I'm thinking of getting her a few of the movies since she picks them out using the boxes.

Thank heavens it's Friday

Well, it's Friday and I'm incredibly thankful! At least that the week is ending and we don't have to worry with transportation issues until Monday. This morning hubby will be home in time to transfer the car seat to his car so that Theresa and I can take it to therapy this morning, we'll be back in plenty of time to stop and get cat food for those two pesky critters. $1 will get a small box to last until Wednesday when he gets paid.

Out of his paycheck we have to get a few things taken care of. The first is a money order for $55 so that his child support is paid for one week. Then I have to add arrears to the $610 so that I keep up with it. I have no idea how much my back brakes are going to be I just know I can't get them for a while. This means that Monday's my husband has to drop us off at therapy and pick up up. He may have to start going with us the rest of the week except for Fridays.

I was enjoying reading Wife No. 19 at my leisure as I worked, now I'll be reading one or two pages a day and moving on. I'm a hundred or so pages into it and it's a rather interesting read so far. Well that's it for today. You can see for yourself if you'd like to read about this woman's rather interesting life.

First Day with the New Speech Schedule

Today was Theresa's first day having speech at 1:30 in the afternoon instead of 10 in the morning. She handled the change fairly well. We focused on potty training this morning, it didn't go as well as I would have liked but it went OK. She can't tell you she has to go, her communication isn't that advanced yet. The change to the schedule means that someone is now home at all times!! There isn't any need to worry about anything at all.

I didn't get much work done with the change today but I did get the laundry folded and Theresa had a hot lunch. When we got home I managed to wash a load of clothes and hang them in the spare bedroom. I saw a tiny washing machine the other day it was cute but wouldn't work for my purposes unless in an emergency.

I'm looking at the mess Theresa made in the floor as I worked today. I have to pick it all up before the vacuum can see it to keep from tearing it up. Theresa will be taking some chips and Scooby snacks to school with her in the morning.

Sunday at Home

Theresa and I spend the day at home while her father went to the store. Tomorrow Theresa and I will stop after therapy to pick up enough groceries to get through the week. Her dad used most of his gas to find something that I had asked for. I should have told him that it'd be fine if he couldn't find it. It's that little things like that which make it easy to reconsider divorcing him. He loves me so maybe we'll try again.

Nice Maybe too nice??

Well in the last week my husband for the moment has been rather nice maybe a bit too nice. He seems to be taking everything in stride and is being more considerate than before I ever told him I wanted a divorce. Sadly enough it's making me wonder if I should continue searching for the format of the divorce papers so we only have to pay the filing fees or call the whole thing off.

I have yet to make my decision but whatever it is I"m not telling him or he'll start acting like he was when I asked for the divorce. I think I'll just wait it out so that I can see what's going on here. I'm tired so maybe that's affecting my thinking process.

Not as Long of a Day as I thought it would be

Today wasn't as long as I thought it would be. Originally we were to be gone from noon until about 5:30 today. Occupational Therapy was from 12:30 to 1:14pm as planned, then we had speech from 1:00 to 1:30. While the little one was in speech I ran across to the nearest Winn Dixie to grab her a bag of pretzels and get myself a coke and a couple of candy bars since there was an hour between the speech and final appointment.

This time I even remembered to get cash back so that I could get her complete powder. The bottle will last a month. Theresa had a good speech session and was happy to play for the hour between sessions. Then Sara came out looking not so well and told me she'd hold out as long as she could. Well, she took Theresa to the potty and a few minutes later Theresa and Kara were coming out. Sara got sick and had to go home.

We'll just have an extra ABA session one week to make up for this one. Theresa's appointments are rescheduled if the therapist is sick, all but speech because she's seen five days a week and her insurance only pays for one session a day.

Tomorrow we only have a half hour of speech then we can begin the weekend.

Thinking about the Decision I've made

As you know I recently decided to get a divorce which do to finances will be a little while in getting filed and finalized. The decision may have shocked some of those around me but it was anything but a surprise to me. I’m still thinking about everything that led up to this decision and I know that it’s the right one.



The reasons I made the decision and the reasons that he thinks I made the decision are completely different. I feel guilty to an extent wondering if maybe I shouldn’t give it one last chance for our daughter’s sake but truth be known I didn’t actually want to marry him. I just had this nagging voice in the back of my head telling me that I should.



I’m not sure what took so long to get to the point of actually calmly and rationally asking for the divorce. There have been a few arguments over the years that ended with me yelling while throwing him and his things out the door. Those fights usually ended with him coming back and us agreeing to give it one more try. Each time the feelings faded a bit more.

taking everything too well

Well, my soon to be ex-husband is taking things rather well. Apparently he's taking it too well he just went for a drive. He's never done that before and he's talking about stopping his direct deposit. That'll make it take a heck of a lot longer to pay off the debt at the bank.

I'll be single again so maybe the name of this blog no longer applies and I should begin a new one. Well, after all is said and done maybe I'll start a new one.

He says he's moving out this weekend whether he can afford to or not. I'm not sure if that's good or bad, he has no where to go and keep his job really. I did not force him to move out. I am being civil, I just don't love him any more.

Taking things a bit too well?

Well, I finally made it clear what I wanted without arguing, yelling or throwing anything. It was the hardest thing I've done in a while. Amazingly he's taking it rather well, or maybe he's in shock. He looked as if I'd hit him dead in the gut as he sat with a blank look while I rushed to get everything out before I lost the ability or the nerve.

We are getting along fine now. He even told me it's not my fault. Maybe I wouldn't feel guilty if he didn't love me but I know that he does. He loves me more than anything or anyone with the exception of his children. That makes it all the more difficult as I watch him trying to let go of us without showing how much it has to be hurting him.

I feel like a mega bitch and for once it's not a title I wear proudly.

Good morning everyone

good morning everyone. after a lot of soul searching it's very clear what I'm going to be doing. I just have to wait about six months to do it. I have really come a long way. I just have to rest up and bide my time then it's all over and I'm a free woman! I love it.

Sick Baby

Theresa is sick today. Poor thing must have been exhausted too because she's actually asleep right now. There wasn't any arguing about napping either. She was supposed to go to the National Peanut Festival for the first time ever tomorrow. It's special citizens day and with Autism she qualifies.

The weather forecast calls for a chance of rain. That means that if it's raining when it's time to go in the morning she doesn't get to. She's been sick today but she's sleeping good now. Maybe it's from being so tired. I'm sick but I think exhaustion caused it.

OK I don't feel so good so I'm going to see if I can get a little bit of work done. Only thirty more minutes before I can take a nap.